feeling so tired!i have been awake since 4:30 in the morning..did sleep fo 2 hours in the afternoon...but didn't even realize tht i slept for 2 hours...n i dn't even remember sleeping.i am feeling so tired mentally...thinking of ways to pamper myself....
studied with leena after the afternoon..did cover a topic..chintan will be droppin in at 10..to teach me perception of distance..thanx 2 him...he has actually helped me studying so many topics in the last 2 years..wish!there were open book exams..it would definetly reduce the stress level in students!
well nachi...i am going to try stop using all those abbreviations and sms-type jargon!
o god!my writing skills are so bad...i hope writing a blog everyday shall improve my writing...in the first line of the last post..i wrote 'won't' instead of 'want'!please ignore the stupid mistakes!!anywyz..its nt a problem if the right thing is conveyed!
sometimes i feel that i stop talking or writing about a thing very abruptly...i realized this during the session of counselling in rebt.i would just stop..and there is no link or continuation in the next topic and its because i suddenly don't think about it..or there is this block..that makes me blank. my dad used to tell me "Think before you speak. What you say and how you communicate can make a big difference in how people respond to you." i do remember his words..n i do follow it..but its only in front of friends,relatives etc..that does not include my significant others..to be true..i even think twice before speaking anything to mom or dad or tanvi for that case..its only with my guardian angel that i don't think before uttering anything..nt even for a second..it is so random..that sometimes i don't realize that i have uttered nonsense..n i tend to hurt him...but i am going to make sure that i think before speaking..even in front of him.
n i have this escapist tendency when it comes to maintaining relationships with friends..any fight..would result in my unconscious efforts 2 end the relationship..n i know its bad..cause thats not it..ending relationships in order to avoid future fights is not a solution..but at that moment i cannot think of anything else...but i am going to take care in future!
i have been trying to be self-centric from few days..by self-centric i mean...trying to get my things done..not welcoming friends in my zone..trying not to be as helpful..trying to be mean and chunt...but believe me i cannot do it!i just can't say no to people!n thats not bad according to me..
i don't believe that one cannot change..there are people who say "i am like this..can't help it..i can't change!". every person on this earth can adapt..can modify their behaviour according to people around them..or atleast for the significant others in order to avoid a maladaptive life!it depends on you..if u value your existence and the existence of people around you..theres nothing that can stop you from feeling satisfies and happy about yourself n your life...
phew!i sound vry philosphical!its just coming out..can't stop writing...but i have to...i think its the effect of studying!i have introduced a disoder known as 'post-exam stress diorder' (pesd) which is prominent in students..onset age:right from adolesence..symptoms:hypersomnia,urge to do all the things other than studies,talking and chatting with friends,use of excess internet,unambiguous thoughts etc!will declare in the psychology journal after reasearch :P
:D
anywyz chalo...gn..chintan will be here in few minutes...signing out for now...
gn..sd...
take care..
keep smiling!
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